As I lay me down to sleep,
I dream of my son before I wake,
His eyes, his hands, his smile,
A happy momma does he make.
I pray his blessings flow abundant,
I know he smiles big,
As his life is filled with love,
Deeper in this dream I dig.
Friends, girls, college and more,
He has a future so full,
I fall deeper into this dream,
Closer to my heart strings he pulls.
Until my dreams become surreal,
And a nightmare begins,
Reminded of all the pain,
When it was just me and him.
All alone, yet they were there,
Family tends to stay close,
But no matter how much I asked for help,
They stayed back and kept their pose.
Screaming at the Lord, my God,
To relieve me from the sorrow,
And then I finally heard Him answer,
“Do not fear the morrow.”
And if I die before I wake,
No matter how bad the dream,
I know my son is safe,
For on his parents he can lean.
The nightmares comes, and then they go,
Temporary like always,
Yet as the sun rises in the sky,
From dreams I will always wake.
I dream of my son often. Sometimes, I do not share these dreams with anyone. They belong to me. We have special moments together in my dreams. Even though I cannot be with him often in reality, life is different in my dreams. I love dreaming about him. To me, it is our secret place. I wonder if he dreams of me?
Sometimes, my dreams turn into nightmares. And that is okay too. Nightmares and dreams are a way for our subconscious mind to process emotions and experiences. Just remember that they are not real. We must be realistic with ourselves in terms of what our reality is, but it doesn’t mean we can’t feel good also.
It is okay to have dreams about our children. They are normal. Enjoy them. I know that they may not mean anything to anyone else, and that is okay. They matter to me. So if you have something personal and special that reminds you of your child, enjoy it!
“You know what’s good about a dream? You can be with people who are impossible to be with in reality.” ~ unknown author
It’s okay. Go ahead and dream.
Lindsay is a guest blogger for Considering Adoption. She placed her son for adoption 7 years ago and hopes to use her experience to support and educate other expectant mothers considering adoption, as well as adoptive families.