It was then that I knew they were the ones. My friend had told me that I would know when I met them and she was right. They were it. I had found my son’s parents.

I was so afraid to move forward with adoption that I partially blocked out this memory. I was in denial of the choice that I knew I was going to have to make.

When I chose my adoption professional, I was honestly seeking transparency in a relationship. I wanted to work with an organization and an agent who wouldn’t keep things from me, or make me feel like they were trying to protect me by keeping the reality of the process from me. I also wanted to make sure that my wishes for my son and the process were respected.

I know that it can be a shock to find out that you are pregnant when it’s unplanned. I went through that. I was floored when I found out that my birth control hadn’t worked and I was going to give birth to a baby. It took time to accept and process that I had a life growing inside of me.

Dearest Younger, Lonely, Lindsay Arielle,
Do not give up or lose hope while you are going through the process of adoption. There are so many things I wish you knew while you are going through this.

Let’s start talking about where we come from and all the people who actually comprise a family through the one tie that binds us: love

Utilizing this tool throughout the process I went through as a mother and as a birthmother has enabled me to process emotions that I wouldn’t have otherwise been able to process. My journal is a safe place for me, and it was especially crucial that I had a safe place when I felt like I was going through the adoption all by myself.

I dream of my son often. Sometimes, I do not share these dreams with anyone. They belong to me. To me, it is our secret place. I wonder if he dreams of me?

When you decide what is best for your child, you don’t just do it once. You chose what is best for them throughout their whole lifetime. Sometimes that means making that decision through adoption. Adoption is always an option.

Many people are familiar with the movie, “The Grinch Who Stole Christmas”, and I want to share my favorite line from it: “In Who-ville they say that the Grinch’s small heart grew three sizes that day!” – Dr. Seuss